I had an epiphany this week. But first I had a dream, not the Martin Luther King Jr-type but the kind where you’re actually asleep and your eyeballs are rolling around all fast and spazzy while you lay there limp, face smooshed into the pillow, drooling. So much goes on in this state that is more important than the daily grind that you’re in when you’re awake. Your dreams are your connection with your true self because let’s face it, the majority of your waking hours are spent doing mundane things while you try and keep fear and paranoia at bay. It’s a balancing act that requires either a tough skin or self-medication of some sort. We run on auto-pilot, like robots, we forget to actual feel, and our actions become misdirected into things like road-rage and addictions. It’s a defense mechanism because modern living is so fucking scary. Time flies and dreams fade. If “Being Alive” was a Facebook fanpage, the only people to “like” it would be the ones off their meds that day. Those are the people that LOL instead of punctuate. I “LOL-ed” on a text message last week, and afterward I slept for 14 hours. It’s a good thing.
So anyway, the other morning, just before I woke up (those are the most vivid dreams and BEAR WITH ME WHILE I RECOUNT THIS), I dreamt I was about to cross the Bloor Viaduct in my car but first I needed money for gas. I found a TDCanadaTrust conveniently located in a ditch, where I parked. I put my card in the machine and looked for the numbers to press but they weren’t there. I got so frustrated that I pulled my card out and started slamming the buttons on the machine. WHY ARE THERE NO NUMBERS? I hollered, shoving my card in and out of the slot. In and out. Frustrated and furious. Guess what happened in real life? I woke up in the middle of a massive orgasm. I think probably it was the biggest of O of my life and my pj’s were in tact and both hands above the waistline. How did that happen? What a mind-blowing jumpstart to the day. I am the man! Me stick something in hole! It fits and feels good! I do it again! I am preparing to conquer my fears about money! The Bloor Viaduct represents transition, not death anymore. People, in the most heightened sense of depair, used to jump off this bridge. But since they built the safety structure, I think they just whoosh over it, not so much thinking about offing themselves but maybe what they are going to have for lunch. Which should really be the highlight of everyone’s day, everyday. I know it is mine.
Before that dream, I had the epiphany. And I had the epiphany because I saw “The Help.” Wait no, first I read the first 127 pages of “The Help,” then I saw the movie. So when I read and saw the movie, the line that that got me was: “Write about what bothers you but doesn’t seem to bother anyone else.” I thought, Fuck Yeah. I’m somewhat slow with reflexes so most things are left for me to marinate helplessly in REM sleep, but what gets my goat is what I will dub as “Urban Zombie Wildlife” (UZW, for short, sorry we’ll think of something better as we go on). It’s a dog-eat-dog world out there and people are so full of shit pie (if you read the book or saw the movie, you will know what I mean), that they are so unaware of their own intuition that they lack compassion. I had a conversation with an anonymous UZW the other day as I am promoting my social media blabbermouth instincts into a career opportunity. Here is how it went:
Me: I’d like to talk to your website. I have some great ideas that I think can help with your current blog and how to maximize it using Twitter and Facebook accounts to your advantage.
UZW: We are looking into social media right now. If we need your services, we will call you.
Me: Well, I really want to just talk to you about how your blog can help promote your business and be an advertising tool as well as something people would want to read on its own. For fun. People actually read them, especially when they are short.
UZW: I don’t really want to waste your time right now, we’ll contact you if we need your services.
Me: WASTE MY TIME? Are you serious? Do you want to know about my time? I have seen every episode of all 3 seasons of Gilligan’s Island every day after school for 6 years. Do the math there. That’s just one show, let’s not talk about the others, and all the other time spent in traffic and waiting in doctor’s offices. I flushed time down the toilet a long time ago. Me and Time spend long hours in the sewer system, ruminating and masturbating, we are an awesome duo. I got time, and you have one shitty, bloated, mess of a blog. I will keep in touch. Hollah!
Tomorrow is another day! Scarlett O’Hara tweeted that one out first. Retweet! LOL.